I have been a member for a couple of days. I have read some of Roage's material and some of the threads on this forum. I have also looked at the 8 part video introduction.
I can't say where this journey started for me (can anyone?), when i feel it is processes that has been going on my whole life or existence (whenever that started). What i can say is that about 1 1/2 years ago i started to take a more active approach on my spiritual path. I don't believe in coincidences. Something led me to the more "conspiratorial" side of the web. I found DI whom i've never heard of beforehand. Some of his material resonated with me and some not. I joined his forum and from there i found many different views, some resonated and some not so much. After a while i started to notice a lot of synchronicities. I started to write down my dreams. To cut a long story short(er) i went back to my old habits and stopped looking deeper into these subjects. I stayed away for little over a half year. A month ago or so i started to read again on the DI forum and i found a thread called "What to do? Know the Grail Law!". I was amazed, nothing i've read beforehand had resonated so much truth to me and it summarized much of what i've come to perceive as truth so far. The article "The man in his cage" was what stood out the most to me - beautiful and truth - i could see it as a movie in front of my eyes. I decided to join this forum. I did not know how to introduce myself on this forum. I felt like something was holding me back (ego), i feared it to be some kind of a trap for me. I asked the almighty for some kind of direction and last night i had a dream i would like to share with you all. Please let me know if it means something to you or if a interpretation springs to mind (or heart). Also please point out any obvious ego clutter of mine in this and coming posts.
Thanks!
My dream starts in front of a buss full of people. I'm excited like when, as young, you are going on a school trip. On the buss everybody speaks english. I am seated next to a man with half long red hair. We start to chat. The man has a "dialect" and i have problems understanding him. I ask where he is from and i explain that i find it frustrating that i have a hard time understanding him. He tells me that he is or has his roots from Scotland and vaguely i remember something about royal heritage and a sword. I really wants to get to know him better and in my dream i remember the frustrating feeling of problems with communication.
The dream changes scenery. We are no longer on the buss but outside. The mans attitude towards me change in a drastic way. He starts to act like a bully. Something like the leader of the pack in school. He pushes me around and because i don't give up we starts to wrestle on the ground. I don't get the feeling that he wants to kill me or anything like that. I am not afraid, more of frustrated that it has gone to this and i don't understand why. I find it sad cause i just wanted to get to know him. I explain my feelings to a woman who are his girlfriend or wife. She just laughs, not mean, and she tells me that the reason he acts this way is because he likes me very much and he knows no other way of showing it.
The dream takes a turn. All of a sudden i'm in a house with other people. The man is not there. Now the dream starts to become a nightmare. Like a zombie movie. The house is surrounded by the living dead who wants to break in. They break in and starts to finish of people "zombie style". I remember thinking to myself, in the dream, that this is like the most brutal horror movie i've ever seen. -[It is always like this in my dreams, i'm part actor and part observer]- . I am stressed out to some part but i don't fear for my life. Some of us manage to escape the house and what is chasing us.
The dream changes scenery again. I feel calm. The red haired man is once again central in my dream. Now we are friends/allies. We are on a hill looking down on a road that lays beneath the hill. The man brings weapons and i remember that we are looking through a sniper rifle. There is a jeep coming on the road beneath us. The zombies are now like militaries. In the front seat of the jeep sits there general. I and the man are setting our aim with the sniper rifle at their general. The jeep goes by and when it's almost out of sight i ask the man if he is not going to pull the trigger because soon it's to late. He answers that it's ok, that it's just a test and then he fires into the air. The jeep and the general is gone. I wake up...
EDIT: If it's ok i would like to use this thread to share more dreams and some lyrics (spontanly sung) of mine. I will post in the appropriate part of the forum
Love to you all...
