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[augustinergirl]

I noticed that during menstruation times, I am even more subject to fearful thinking and illusions (translate Ego attacks) than usual...
so has any of the ladies experienced similiar things?
It was particularly overwhelming last week and I felt so weak and extremely vulnerable. well we all have heard of PMS and hysterical behavior (hysterical derives from the word "womb, uterus" so there is a connection there) . But I am sure there are explanations that go beyond the material plane where it is only a matter of progesterone and estrogene..
I would love to have your ideas, guys can share their second-hand experiences on the subject too

[Gemini]

Well I can relate to this. I also experience it a few days prior. I can become fearful, angry, upset and generally find myself losing the will to do anything constructive.....little bit like that today to be honest..
I have always put it down to PMT and have, throughout my adult life, just accepted it as the norm. However, I must say this time it seems to be having more of an effect than usual. I don't know if this is because I have been feeling so elated recently and its hit me harder because the difference in me is now more pronounced.....by that I mean although there was a difference previously, between when I am pr-menstrual and not, to be fair, it never felt this big. I just want to feel like I did last week but feel like I can't find my way back there....I feel kind of defeated..
Good subject.....will be interesting to get some insight on this. Now off to listen to some inspirational music, that's bound to help...

[roage]

It will be interesting to see what becomes of this.

I found this:

"Testosterone levels vary during the menstrual cycle as do other sex hormones, testosterone peaks during the middle phase of the cycle around the time of ovulation"

http://www.time-to-run.com/women/testosterone.html

I am wondering if higher testosterone levels may push women to a more left-thinking mind frame and that discomfort may result from being less connected intuitively?

I cannot help but think that testosterone level may be a factor in the male or female nature of our mental state. High levels tends to make both men and women ego maniacs, extremely aggressive and driven.

OMG I am a girly man!

[Moose]

move along, nothing to see here.

[permie1]

As I'm going through the change of life I am experiencing different symptoms than either of you, but beside the obvious physical aspects and hormonal imbalance it became apparent to me that there is a correlation between the physical aspects and what I call repressed memory-thought-emotions (ego), a sort of collective memory if you will, that is tied to the menses.

Women have been handing down these memories from generation to generation by body language and verbal expression and as soon as we became aware we accepted these memories by the constant reinforcement of these attitudes toward menstruation. Most of these memories have some sort of negative connotation based mostly on fear, shame resentment, blame etc…Ego is only too willing to use these imprints to trigger the emotions and thoughts to create, at the least, discomfort, and at it’s worst severe depression and excruciating pain. I have noticed that going through the awakening process that my symptoms were less apparent when the ego was suppressed. Of course by contrast when the ego was more pronounced I felt the stronger effects of pain, depression, fatigue and general malaise.

I would be interesting to find out if there are others that had a noticeable physical and emotional improvement by suppressing the ego and changing the thought pattern right before menstruation and during menopause. Now, this is a theory brought up by my own observations. I will research online if there are any corroborating materials on this subject, which is quite interesting.

[Moose]

[roage]

:shock:

You know I thought it would be a good idea to have protected male and female forums so gender specific topics could be discussed without interruption.

Your proving my point

[Moose]

your the man!

[augustinergirl]

Yeah move along Moose, protect yourself, you surely will not want to hear what I am about to post now...
I was in hiding for the last days and having a complete breakdown. Sitting in a black hole, drowning in negativity and despair.
I was hating myself and everything, and you on the forum especially. I knew somehow my pain was connected to the forum but could not figure out the reason.
When the agitation got weaker I was reminded of a situation in my life, where I had reacted similarly hurt, and then more and more situations were coming up, and I went backwards in time and finally arrived at when I was 2 years old.
My Mum was always my God she was the being I loved and admired the most. Suddenly there was this newborn baby, my brother and she was not there for me as before, and I felt left behind, jealous.
As soon as I got that insight the tears stopped. It was a cathartic experience.
Now "accidentally" the day I registered on the forum, was the first day of menstruation. You guys, the whole englighthened bunch of you (I cannot even spell that word now,don't matter) greatly triggered that feeling of being left behind. Since you were all so einlgihtened and I was the dummy asking stupid questions, unenlgihtened and left behind, as usual. I felt meaningless and unable to contribute (see what I wrote on the disturbance thread on the subject).
There is a connection I am making now - menstruation = Moon = Mum. See it all boils down to that feeling of being abandoned by my mum at age 2...
I am still afraid of posting here. I thought it would be better, after that experience. STill kind of shaky.

[Moose]

I think i'll stick around for the moment, ( eye's Squinting )

It is your time to enter your own cocoon. In there will be more of what you have experienced, more of thoughts that slipped away with passing time.
Important to examine all that now flows to you. This will not be a photo album of happy occasion's.
Ø has it all planned, you are here from his will alone. We as being as a collection of minds, are mearly tools to bring about was is needed.
There is much excitment for your journey that follows .