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[roage]

Thankfully, I am moving out of a rather uncomfortable aspect of my experience. To this point I have existed in a place I described as "Standing in the Doorway". I have been shown people who have been locked deeply within their own ego dungeons and are so pathetic that and helpless that it defies description. Within them, of course, is a self crying out for relief. That they they can see me I always took as a signal that i was to be a tool to finally allow them to rise from their self-imposed imprisonment. I see the light in them. Intuition always warned me that they had no chance of surmounting their obstacles and my entanglement with them yielded only a measure of frustration and discomfort in my own experience. This last iteration was quite a test in that I was part of the cage and was tasked with piling on even more confusion and suffering.

I am quite over feeling sorry for these creatures and I have seen what I was being shown to me. Those that are to make it while they still breathe are already well on their way. The rest will be liberated when their suit is removed and they leave the simulation. This is neither good or bad it merely is. I am grateful that this aspect of my experience has come to fruition as I will no longer be sucked into another's miserable self-torment. The will cry moan and suffer somewhere where this suit is not as I can no longer learn from their predicaments.

This last iteration was constructive for both me and Eliane and we have grown much for having gone through it. It did come at the expense of another who is now more confused than when they started. I don't feel bad for being that mechanism of confusion as I see it as a necessity in this case.

To this point, my own personal book of Revelations has brought me through my own Armageddon. I have experienced the great revelation and lately my ordeal with Jezebel has been brought to a finality. All, strangely is going according to plan it seems. Not my plan but the plan.

I await the Four Horseman and Gabriel's Trumpet and to whatever revelatory magic this fate holds for me.

One thing for sure, I will no longer need to troll the dungeons as those who are there, are there and those who are not, are not. It no longer requires my entanglement as I am going to merely observe and enjoy the entertainment.

Roage

[Moose]

A long over due burden finaly released from your mind.

Welcome to peace.